At First I thought

At first I was one of those people that was raised in the word. I became a Master Mason and was a Master Mason of 2 different Lodges at the same time. Then some bad things happened in my life.
My brother died I got charged and convicted of a crime I did not commit when my son was 9 months old. Then I got sued and lost everything I owned.
My son spent the first 5 years of his life in poverty. Which of course I blamed on God and Jesus for forsaking me.
I have recently lost everything again. Business , house, boats, credit cards, money, happiness.
Then some unusual things started to happen to me. My house was under forclosure and my neighbor was attacking me on a daily basis. When the unsual thing started to happen.
I had my video surveillance cameras up and running because of my crack head neighbors coming over every night taking hammers to my cars and such.
Well one night about 9:30 P.M. I walked past the camera and then about 2 minutes later a floating orb past the camera. I saw it when I reviewed the tape. I asked my wife to view it.
When she confirmed I was not seeing things it sort of freaked me out. I have the video of it on my My Space page. Go and look for Todd Box. Play the Orb Video you will see what I mean.
Then I started to look at other video I had that I never reviewed. There was one with alot of orbs and little critter type things that turned to orbs. Well my son's friend Patrick was watching it with us and he said look at that ghost! We did not see what Patrick saw at first but then we did. It looked like the static you see on a T.V. screen but in the form of a human and walking around. All these things were around me in the video but I did not see them with the naked eye. The "ghost" came out from behind my neighbors house and walked up to another neighbors door then walked half way down the lawn then walked up through thin air into a tree!
After that the "activity" really picked up. That is when I realized that "spirits" are real and they are all around us all the time!. I have a video of an "orb" coming out of the ground and disappearing through my bedroom wall on the outside of my house!
So I started thinking. If spirits are real than we all must be spirits. That when we die we continue on. A very sobering thought. An epiphany actually.
Then things I was indoctrinated in when I was youg started to come back to me. How Jesus said that God is in all of us.
So the spirits I saw were the spirits that are in all of us but each to his own spirit.
Then they started saying things to me. They really freaked me out. I thought I was going insane. Literally I would hear voices say statements to me. Like "Isn't that interesting?"
and other things. Sometimes just screaming which my family heard when we were all together with our dog.
The talking at me continued albeit only when I was in the total darkness and outside my house.
We moved to another house and for a short time it all stopped. Now it has started again.
Something I will say here that will indicate if this is happening to you. I get awakened at times during the night such as 11:11 P.M. ,12:12 A.M., 1:11 A.M., 2:22 A.M., 3:33 A.M., 4:44 A.M., 5:55 A.M..
If this is happening to you you most likely are experienceing something like me.
The other night I was jarred awake by 3 loud knocks on my bedroom door. It was 3:03 A.M.
Other things are happening in the new house. It is touching me in my sleep what ever it is. Sometimes just rubbing my ear. Other times it feels like a cat is walking across me. I know it is not a cat spirit but the little critter type things I saw in the video.
All of this has brought me back to the realization we are not alone and that people before us know things that we do not know.
God is real.
So I started to think.
What was causing me to lose everything again? What caused me to lose everything the last time ten years earlier?
Then it hit me. I was very, very angry at the people that did this to me and my family. I did not know what to do about it . So I used a method I had used in the distant past when I was troubled.
I got my Bible and let it open to any page. Right there I started reading and it was telling me the parable about the King that forgave 10,000 Denars of his servant then that servant went and sought out a fellow servant that owed him 100. He had his fellow servant thrown in jail until he paid. Word of this got back to the King and the King gave up the servant that owed him 10,000 to the torturers until he paid. He did not have him put in jail no he gave him over to the torturers. The lesson I got from that was I needed to forgive people no matter what they had done. Otherwise I would never be free of my troubles and when I die they would only get worse.
So I started saying to myself I forgive those crack heads. I forgive the whole crack head family. You know what? Even though he was convicted of attacking me with a hammer and he was 20 and I 52 I forgave him.
I started to feel much better. Things started to turn around for me.
I got some work and made enough to get my family into another house when we got evicted from the one we lost.
I also forgave him his restitution he would have been ordered to pay me back. I had him in the palm of my hand and I let him go. I did not show up for the restitution hearing. I forgave him.
Then I saw an Interesting show on T.V. it was about forgiveness and how to do it.
I learned that inorder to really forgive someone you cannot just say "I forgive you" and it is done. No you need to practice forgiveness.
Here is how I now do it. I sit in a quiet place inside or out. I imagine the person I want to forgive in front of me. I then tell them all the things I forgive them for. I go right down the list we all have.
After that I ask them to forgive me. I do not elaborate I just ask them to forgive me.
I have found this works. I even ask forgiveness of people that have died that I could no longer speak to. The reason being I know they are still around me. Also I have to. To change my life for the better.
I have become a more peaceful person and people like me more. for the first time in my life I really feel as if all the somethings that I always felt were wrong and there even though I could not put a finger on them or name them have gone.
I am not reactionary much anymore. Sure I still have my moments of anger but they pass very quickly in a matter of minutes rather tan holding on to them for 30 years.
Also when I hear of a relative squandering their lives when I always thought they owed me I do not have angry thoughts about them.
All this has happened because I have found for the first time since 1991 that Jesus is Forgiveness. To accept this is the most important thing I have done in my adult life.
Remember what he said on the Cross? "Father forgive them for they know not what they do". That was a very deep thing for me. He was just not talking about his executioners and tormentors.
He was talking about the entire human race.
Because we do not know what we do.